All Is Grace

my brain is a little bit of a mess lately.

(i know. you’re thinking, “lately??”)

messy brain leads to lack of blogging. lack of focus. lack of memory. messy brain leads to…lack of pretty much everything. you know what helps messy brain?

nope. me either.

i’ve tried different techniques to deal with messy brain. i’ve baked. cooked. decorated. crocheted. planned. colored. made lists. cleaned. exercised. read. prayed. researched. eaten. had a glass of wine. talked to friends. talked to my kids. uploaded pictures to my website. changed fonts on my blog. built a new blog. ignored said blog. digitally scrapbooked. thought about growing and juicing wheatgrass. explored purposes for whey. sorted drawers. reorganized cupboards.

nothing has really solved the brain issue, but…some things have alleviated it momentarily (or they’ve distracted me enough that i’ve forgotten about them).

there just seem to be so many things going on over which i have no control. and so many things over which i have complete control but would much rather not deal with at all (things like…the disorganization in my basement. the clutter on the bookshelf. the excess of clean laundry in the laundry room. the number of purses i haven’t used in the past year which remain in my closet). frankly, it feels like the more things i have that i can’t control, the less i want to deal with the things i could control. 

what IS that??? i mean, there are places that i take control that definitely keep me sane. i don’t just say, “screw it, i don’t care about anything anymore.” the essentials get done. in a somewhat timely fashion. the kids get fed, groceries fill the fridge, bills get paid, the house gets vacuumed, the bathrooms are clean, laundry is done, kids are (un)schooled, cakes are booked and completed. but everything else…well, it’s hit or miss. i even put it on the to-do list…then often blow it off. 

it’s my coping mechanism. i’m overwhelmed…so i just get by with the essentials. even though the other stuff bogs. me. down. because i don’t do it.

sigh.

got a cure for messy brain? avoidance of all things non-essential?

i’m all ears.