All Is Grace

there is so much i put off until tomorrow.

but seriously, tomorrow is almost here.

tomorrow i start p90x3. i’m not putting this one off. just lining up my rest days. 🙂

after all the beachbody programs i have started (and completed), this shouldn’t be that big of a deal, right? but i have anticipated this for 3 months. since i found out it was coming, i’ve been crazy excited. the battle i have faced with hypothyroidism…my research talks extensively about the need for resistance training, as opposed to steady state cardio training. p90x was the beginning of my fitness journey. after two rounds of that, and a round of Insanity, i never felt more fit in my life. ever. that was a month after i left my ex and became single again. three years, two teenagers, a second marriage, and an irritating diagnosis later…i’m ready for this. so ready. i’ve planned my nutrition, auto-scheduled my workouts, gathered my equipment, and set my water/food/workout alarms.

every new program, i start out crazy nervous. this is no exception. i worry about the intensity, the pushups, the cardio, my soreness, the moves themselves. but not this time. this time, my dread does not lie in the workout…

…but the “before” pics.

and stepping on the scale.

i don’t even want to know.

i’ll let you know how it turns out in the morning.

but you know what’s even worse than the dread of tomorrow? the dread of 90 days from now. if this is not successful, if my attempts at changing my body with all of this don’t work…what will i do 90 days from tomorrow?

hehe…interestingly, it will line me right up with my next physical.

awesome.

oh, my new doctor (my old doctor moved) is just going to LOVE me in March.  or maybe she actually will! because maybe…just maybe…i’ll be the exception to that stupid rule. the one that says a diagnosis of “hypothyroid” is a 15 pound guarantee.

does somebody have a time machine? i would like to go back to 2003. i would do a few things differently.