“You God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water.” Psalm 63:1, NIV
When was the last time I earnestly sought him? Thirsted for him? When my whole being longs, does it long for Him? Oh, I am dry and parched…and there is no water…often. But what is my response? Do I reflexively seek him??
Nope.
My empty places…I fill them up…or ignore them. The deepest thirsts of my soul, I attempt to quench with friends. Family. Activity. Relationships and scheduling. And not that these, in and of themselves, are bad things. But they are the reason I’m never. fully. satisfied. Not because I invest in them…just because…they are the only place I go.
And when a relationship fails me (or I fail it), or an activity tears me down, or a schedule fills to overflowing and I’m overwhelmed and exhausted…the result is not “filled up.” It’s…empty.
Renee Swope said it well this morning: “Until God’s love and acceptance is enough, nothing else will be.”
Yeah. No kidding.
I’ve been trying to fill up. With good things. It just struck me tonight how empty I still feel. And here’s the thing…in my mind, God’s love and acceptance are enough for me. Truly. So what the heck is my deal? Why the empty places? What is missing?
All Is Grace 